|My half pollinated corn on a bed of Chinese cabbage|
There are little parasites that pop up and slow down my growth and other things that, like a an emerging bud, have shown me that there is a reason for where I am:
I have one big go-to issue...by no means my only one, but it's definitely the most consistant. Essentially it's my trying to think my way to God. As much as I'm consious of it, it crops its way up in new and different ways all the time. Kind of a tangible efforts to meet intangible goals kinda deal.
On a more positive side, I can honestly say that in all the struggles I've had with faith and purpose and career and job, God has blessed me to give me hints as to reasons for situations I see as less than ideal. From coworkers letting me know that they were glad I could support them through difficulties in their lives to people at the gym telling me that they see me as a calm, peace-making person. While it was great to hear those things, I've learned a lot more from these people who were honest and open enough to tell me these things...a trait that I could definitely work on in my own life.